Scale…Scale…Scale…bleh.

There is no worse thought than what rolls through the brain of a woman stepping on a scale. I made the worst mistake and stepped on the scale after steak and cornbread for dinner, 32 oz of water, and s’mores around the fire. 148.5! One hundred forty-eight point five! To many, this number is a goal. For me, this number is less than 10 lbs away from my weight the day I went in to have my first child. That was a little over 7 years ago – but what the hell??? Yes, I had a little more to eat this evening than normal, but I also know that it is only a few pounds off from my morning weight.

My immediate thoughts were: ‘Gross’ ‘Look how fat you are’ ‘You should’ve kept exercising’ ‘What detox/juice diet can you do before you leave on vacation?’ ‘I can’t believe he still wants me’ ‘I’m disgusting’ ‘How did you get here?’

How did I get here???! Dr. Pepper, sugar, stress and lack of self-discipline. This is where I become #1, I take back my focus and give it to myself, set goals and work my ass off – literally! I have to be honest with myself. I probably won’t be giving up Dr. Pepper, at least not immediately. However, I could cut back to 1 can or bottle a day. I could exercise – at least go walking every day. Funny how chasing after kids and running errands and cleaning the house don’t actually burn enough calories in a day. I don’t eat terribly. I enjoy fruits and veggies, but I have a hard time turning down steak and potatoes. I guess this is where ‘balance’ comes in to play. Finally, math class starts to pay off!

Goal: Lose 10 lbs (I could lose more, but I want to make it achieveable)

How?

1.    Reduce Dr. Pepper intake – 1 can or bottle per day

2.  Exercise Daily

a.  Take Emmy (dog) for a walk

b.  Youtube video – I’ve heard about PopSugar so I might check those out

c.  Home workout – I have a ton of fitness magazines that have a lot of exercises plus the exercises everyone knows from high school

3.  Eat less junk

4.  Sleep 8 hours – Research shows that if you get the recommended hours of sleep, your health and metabolism improve.

Why?

1.    I want to feel better about myself.

2.  I want my kids to know that you should take care of yourself – ALWAYS! I need them to see that I care about myself too.

3.  Overall health. So many bad things happen due to excess weight – This will help with my stress and anxiety and mindset.

4.  To be hot again – to me not just my husband. It is always so difficult to see what he sees or tells me he sees.

5.  I deserve it!

When do I start?

RIGHT F*CKING NOW!